Showing posts with label future. Show all posts
Showing posts with label future. Show all posts

Monday, August 10, 2009

My Summer

Monday, August 10, 2009 0

My summer has been filled with ups and downs. Starting from graduation of high school, I was hoping to get paid as a camp counselor. Of course, because of the events to my shoulder, I was withheld pay. Sure a counselor only gets paid 59 cents/hour (as it was found out), that's $250 per week more than what I have in my pocket to show. But I went as a Counselor's Assistant anyways, because my mother persuaded me so, and it kept me out of some stupid trouble.
So my summer was spent almost exclusively at camp, watching children of middle school age and younger. During this time, I also had to go through therapy, which was my workout during my off period for most days, up to the first month I was out there. This was fun, and I got used to the schedule. Then I get stuck out with horses. I don't know a damn thing bout horses. SO what do I do? I became a squire (that's what we called ourselves) and started shoveling shit. That week sucked, as well as every trip I had to make out there, because I despise such creatures.
Anyways, besides those 2 setbacks, I was having lots of fun. I wasn't watching the kids as much as relaxing with them and becoming their friend, not only their counselor. My Color Wars team did well (for the first 2 sessions), but I blame SHANaNOgaNs for that - there's no way the same team can win 3 sessions in a row. Out at skatepark then challenge course wasn't bad. Then changing from challenge course to marksmanship was fine too. I found out that riding a skateboard is actually a bit fun, and I love shooting things, so BB guns and archery was my fix.
Mid-way through the third session I went out to the UF orientation. First thoughts, "**** this is a big campus!" I still think it is now. Along the way I ended up changing my major from Computer Science to Computer Engineering - Software, and kept Mathematics. I also registered for classes, met some really cool people, and continue to realize how big the UF campus is.
Then I came back to camp to watch the kids some more. At least there were some CITs (Counselor In Training) who I absolutely loved, and they pulled me through to the next and final session. The last session I pretty much rode out. During this time I found out I got one of the best dorms on the UF campus, even better it was near my classes too. I also realized that I never want to return to camp again, well this particular camp. As much as I love the campers it just wasn't (and still isn't) worth coming back. The last day finally comes, and I figure it'll be the easiest day...hell no. First, one of the counselors decides to be a bitch bout a small prank and wants to tell me I'm not doing my job, got me excited to the point where I wanted to fight. Instead I ran and cooled off, and rode for the rest of the day. Till I get told that my Twitter pisses parents off cause it's content isn't up to their standards for a camp counselor, and I'm told I have to edit it. HAHAHAHA.
They can shove it.
I feel that's my censorship, and they can get over themselves, along with my bosses, for a number of reasons. They get over it. And I try to end on a good note. This is achieved by having a firing squad armed with corn throwing their ammo at the counselor who pissed me off earlier. Without speaking we made amends of the situation, it's better to end on a good note. And the Twitter situation doesn't matter, cause it was never my fault that parents are snoopy and that Google works magically well. Closing campfire ended off well. Long, but well.
And finally to today. I am home. With a dead battery in my car this morning, and a new one currently. With plans that fell through, but I'm gonna hit the town up for sure within the week. With college only a week away. These next few weeks should be fun :)

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Saturday, June 6, 2009

Purgatory

Saturday, June 6, 2009 0

That's how I feel right now, in the middle of everything.  Though I'm 18, graduated from high school, and even taken some college classes, I still feel young.  There are many things that I am still, and I still have growing up to do.  Thus, I feel in a state of pugatory.  Seated in the middle, I'm an adult when people choose me to be.  I do something wrong, I'm an adult.  I want to stay out all night, I'm young.

I'm ready for college at some parts, but others I'd rather do without.  Similarly I look forward to the privileges, but shun the reprecussions.  Maybe I should just sit back and chill.  And truly sit within purgatory.  Let life pass by.  Then clense myself for college.  In the direction of acting right, and commiting to obligations, not so much prayer...as that is another subject and would screw up the analogy.
I guess that's just how life goes...probably should stop staying up late for starters...naw it's still Summer, gotta keep my internal party alive. LOL

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Monday, May 4, 2009

Can't Sleep

Monday, May 4, 2009 0

Tonight I cannot sleep, which is horrible since I have a test bright and early tomorrow...ugh.  Anyways as the high school year ends, the future approaches and what comes with it has yet to be seen.  So many people have their own input, and ideas, but where do you look?  Should you even follow someone else's path?  Go down a road that is not your own?  Or would you make it your own, by changing a direction or two, yet still making it to the same goal point?

These questions and many more have had me quite stressed lately.  Which is strange since most things won't bother me too much, as impatient as I really am.  I feel myself ready to commit to stupider things and actions, without thinking of the reprecussions.  Even with my birthday coming up I'm not sure if I'm even ready for that.  Through the week I'll make my way, as I always do - at least I don't have a test on my birthday, unlike last year.
College seems to be the next big step for me after the summer, hopefully my head will clear up and will be ready for the Fall.  And I'm looking to pass at least two of these AP tests, but we shall see what I can really do as the time nears.
Hopefully this will put me to sleep.....probably not.

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