Can't Sleep

Tonight I cannot sleep, which is horrible since I have a test bright and early tomorrow...ugh.  Anyways as the high school year ends, the future approaches and what comes with it has yet to be seen.  So many people have their own input, and ideas, but where do you look?  Should you even follow someone else's path?  Go down a road that is not your own?  Or would you make it your own, by changing a direction or two, yet still making it to the same goal point?

These questions and many more have had me quite stressed lately.  Which is strange since most things won't bother me too much, as impatient as I really am.  I feel myself ready to commit to stupider things and actions, without thinking of the reprecussions.  Even with my birthday coming up I'm not sure if I'm even ready for that.  Through the week I'll make my way, as I always do - at least I don't have a test on my birthday, unlike last year.

College seems to be the next big step for me after the summer, hopefully my head will clear up and will be ready for the Fall.  And I'm looking to pass at least two of these AP tests, but we shall see what I can really do as the time nears.

Hopefully this will put me to sleep.....probably not.

Profanity

Well today I was asked what profanity is, and I ended up with this quite wordy response.......it's not edited for kicks.

profanity: items not belonging to the church

based upon the definition above, it's you screaming to people "I don't go to church"...lol

for me it's used as making a saying more memorable or to dramatize it such as "I hate that 'fucking' cat" instead of "I hate that cat" it gives more demand to be brought to the hatred of the cat......or if you take it literally the cat 'fucks' too much and humps everything like a dog and you hate it lol

depending who you speak w/ profanity can be used abstractly then change to be literal to switch the connotation of the subject
I know that when I'm w/ my friends the phrase "no homo" must be stated quite often since everything will be changed based on what you had said

profanity is what you make it out to be from maturity level to a shift in comfort between people

So that's part of what I think upon the subject.  Just to make it be very clear, I swear like a sailor.

Project 365

No, I have not fell off the wagon of Project 365.  I have the pictures, only have to sort through them and post them within the next week I shall become back up to date.  So no worries people, do not scratch your eyeballs out of their sockets just yet.

Freud....How He Rules the World, Still

Freud is the first official psychologist, and actually delved within the mind. What he dealt with most was the repressed thoughts and emotions to cause problems psychological problems. Most of which was sex ruled the mind, and we are all little horndogs running around the world tying to act as if we have any sense of chastity. But now as the days are changing, we are embracing our sexuality, hell now little kids show deal with sexual actions, and my younger brother, aged six years, even claims females as his girlfriends. So instead of our ego pushing against our ids, it is allowing the id to beat the superego in decision making. Or is it that our superego is simply changing with the times, as we see boobs and box (term from Asher Roth and it works well) on the idiot box more often are we desensitizing ourselves as a culture to become more sexual? Or could Freud be controlling us from the grave to prove a point. But then it would be proving him wrong, since there's more open sex as well as more people with psychological problems. So from the movies to magazines sex is everywhere, and Freud called it - sex is on everyone's mind....somewhere. Even some people say that the internet was invented for porn (hopefully the link works), though it wasn't created for such, it certainly is used as such. Look at the new Google Chrome browser it has an incognito window so that your tracks cannot be traced, perfect for the horndog inside.

After so many days of trying to complete this post, I have lost all train of thought and will leave it to be incompleted....and if you want to grade me give me that "i" as on high school transcripts, I don't have a problem with that for this subject as long as you know Freud still reigns the world....

it must be stated

COMCAST IS FAIL.

Within the past week I have come to become very pissed off with their service, and how only one person can help you......well only one person is ALLOWED to help you.  WTF is that?  It tooka week, almost 20 calls to Comcast, a service truck to come to my house, a trip out to the Comcast Local Office, and a couple more calls to Comcast before this was resolved.  If any commercial of Comcast says that they have reliable customer service, it's a damn lie.  Most of the people in their tech. department don't know the first thing about technology of today.  So here's to Comcast and all the crap that they put me through while not being connected for a week, and attempting to get back on track.

To Commit

Committing, what does it mean to you? Usually when I hear of commitment I think of marriage. Yet there are many different way to commit. You commit when you get a tattoo, unless you want to get laser removal which supposedly hurts like hell, takes many sessions, and could possibly give cancer (remember this is all speculation I'm too lazy to do actual research). You commit to finishing a project, where marriage would fit listening to many married couples, and watching lots of television. You commit a crime, go ahead and commit a crime the judge will explain all your crimes as "committing" this and "committing" that, to each certain degree.
Committing could be a good thing, like committing to your wife b y not cheating on her. It can also be bad by committing to a lie and not telling your wife about the other woman (or women if you're really bad). You can commit to a diet and possibly become more healthy (depending on the diet - "Supersize Me"). You can commit to you're adrenaline and possibly kill yourself. You can be committed to be drug-free, or committed to smoking every 4-20. You can be committed to having a kid, or to using a condom to - attempt to - prevent having a kid.
However you commit, it could be good or bad given your take on life. No matter how your life goes commitment is everywhere and you will run into at some point or another (not strictly talking of relationships). But if you're unhappy break the commitment (strictly talking of relationships). So have fun with those commitments.

Where Were All These Pens a Month Ago??

Currently my mother and brother are cleaning the house.  And I swear every time I turn around one of them is bringing me another pen, sometimes two or three at a time.  I don't understand where they are all appearing from.  A month ago I couldn't find one pen anywhere, and now after I got two large packs of pens, they are popping up for everyone to see.

This isn't the only thing to happen as such.  On Easter day, my mother and I hid special eggs for my brother because some had Bakugan in them for him.  It just so happens that one of the good eggs we couldn't find.  Then miracuously my mother found it this morning, and my brother has yet another Bakugan to play with.  But why couldn't we find it Easter, but now my  moter can find it like it's nothing?  As with the pens where in the **** did they come from?